Boy oh boy
I have a lot of thoughts just right now seriously, I wanna throw up sometimes, being in a relationship is not completely a good idea. it's become a perspective of mine probably from last year when I tired of relationship but why is it always haunted me. actually, not the person but that is the "relationship". I don't know whether I am ready for having one, but I really still want to play around. Wanna chase for things I love to do. seriously, I don't wanna be a serious-love affair insider right now. not because I'm hopeless of love, but I feel tired of it. I honestly want to know me better, just don't get that sick feeling when anyone around you and your emotions, your thoughts, your brain, mind, soul, body or whatever it is are tied with it, in formal or informal way, and yes. everyone can see it. it is obvious. This cheesy feeling hit me this evening. I even cry because of this shit. I wanna be a girl, I'm probably in my egoistic-phase rig...