A countdown to 30 #entry 2

Hi there, I'm writing this as a post in my final days on being 29. I'm pretty happy to be honest for reaching this age happily, healthy, already got some of my dreams become reality and some didn't. 

becoming 30, It's a bit scary, I used to consider >30 y.o people "old" hahaha, but now I'm going to enter that era,  I might have a couple of reflections that I really consider it as I got it from my experience during the last decade of my life. today, I want to write it down for you.

- You are not behind, Nobody has it figured out

I really thought by this age, I’d have everything together.

A clear plan.
A perfect routine.
Confidence in every decision.

But the truth is…
everyone is just doing their best with what they know

I learn to go easy with myself. When some of my dreams doesn't come into reality, I choose to be okay with it. I used to be a dreamer, Dream really hard, and somehow the universe helped me to reach my dreams. But things changed, I changed, I became less discipline, I got obstacles, and so on, and that makes me live a life that might be not the same as I planned or I pictured, But in my 20s, I slowing down. See where the winds brought me. I sometimes envy a lot of people and friends who got a lot of big things that looked good in society, but yeah, the grass is always greener in the other side. 

i my 20s I learn to not thinking that I'm behind, that anyone have their own pace. We're not in a racing or anything. 

- health is the most important

I'm glad in times of my life aku beberaapa kali join gym member, tapi cuma agak nyeselnya kenapa nggak konsisten itu loh. Everytime I do some exercise my boday always thank me, to see the progress, aaaaa sungguh menyenangkan. In my late 20s aku ikut yoga dan selanjutnya aku beli mat, practice yoga di rumah, A glimpse in my thoughts "kenapa gak daridulu sih?" dan ya, semoga tidak hanya fomo yah, bisa lanjut sampai tua nanti sehat dan panjang umur, amin...

-experience and travel opens your mind

in my early 20s aku nekat bepergian ke Jepang, ke Malay, Singapore, dan lalu melahirkan Zefa di usia 22. Tak henti-henti aku membanggakan cerita ketika aku travel. It helps broaden my mind, bisa melihat orang di belahan dunia lain bertingkah seperti apa, kebiasaannya apa, it really nice to learn new things and I really felt the benefits of it. It helped me and give me another frame of seeing things that happened in this world, phenomenon that happens di negara konoha ini. Dan tentunya bisa jadi nice and good memories yang selalu bisa aku cherish. Semoga kedepan masih bisa terus travelling dan exploring new things with my little ones.

-you'll outgrow people

we used to be grow in a same pace, in a same season, dulu kita duduk di sekolah bareng sama temen-temen suka duka dan semua kesusahan dihadapin bersama, tugas yang didapet juga sama jadi kalo fail bareng-bareng juga, sekarang timeline kita beda. we got to choose what we gonna do today, nggak ada lagi tuh jadwal pelajaran atau kuliah yang pasti. Apa yang kita pilih dan kerjakan saat ini itu yang menentukan outcome kita. Begitupun dengan teman-teman di sekitar kita, mereka tumbuh dengan pacenya masing-masing, jadwal kita udah beda. There were friendships I thought would last forever…but we grew in different directions.  

-being surrounded by people who's supportive to you can makes you stands strong

I have couple of obstacles that turns into happiness, actually it was all life lesson and a path that I had to pass. I really grateful for everything, every people I met in every journey that I have to tackle. Terlebih, di beberapa journey itu ada puzzle yang berat harus kuselesaikan. dari situ aku belajar problem solving. Gimana aku jadi ada di kondisi yang tidak sedang baik baik saja, orang2 yang ada disekitarku itulah yang membuat aku kuat.  

- being a parent teach me a lot - read more! and my priorities change

what mattered to me in my early 20s (career, going abroad, have an amazing worklife journey) doesnt matter that much anymore, the most important thing is what job that still easy for me to have access with my son daily, and that's what I got actually, one of my dreams becone reality! yes. Jadi PNS.

tapi banyak banget mindset shift dan priorities shift di umur 20an ku. And it was amazing and a lot of lesson learned. 

it's amazing to see how I grow and lets say this decade is a superb journey. memasuki usia 30 kelihatannya kaya nakutin, kaya udah harus sukses aja gitu, well, masih belum rupanya

and that's okay. Let's see perjalanan hidup gimana lagi yang akan kulewati, cheers to 30s!!!