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Life Update summer 2024.

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Lately I'm trying to figure out, I know it's a bit late, but I like to explore more about motherhood, productivity, I'd like to learn more about homemaking. Is it just the perks of being a mom or just regular 28 years old thoughts? Seeing my kids, I have 2 kids now. One of them is on Kindergarten (TK-B here in Indonesia) and my newborn baby, is officially a 1 year old baby. I have a toddler (second time) I had to parent a toddler again! It feels like not so long ago I searched for tot-school ideas, sensory play, and all those kids activities and now I have baby number two, whom childhood I need to cherish.  Feeling overwhelmed no more because now I feel a little bit more relaxed and enjoy more of being a parent. I love the way I am now seeing parenting and how to parent more loosely. It actually benefiting me, also maybe I got to work daily right now so My thoughts will be divided by two on daily basis but when I got home, that's my turn to change into full time mom mod

Grief and happiness.

 It's been almost a year since the last time I write in my blog. 2023 was a really hard year for me. Even until now. It's still burdened me. All the feelings, trauma. But I know, that all of those is what made me who am I today.  It's really hard to lost a parent. I lost my dad last year, the year of 2023. I miss him a lot. I cry a lot. I dream a lot. About him.  To be honest, it's really feel like I have no direction about what should I do in my life right after My Dad left me. It's really hard for me until I feel like I'm the most sad person around. It still hit me hard even until now. I really miss him a lot.  I got thoughts like, why not my dad be here to greet his 2nd grandson, why, Oh God. and also all the grit "I should've call him more", "I should've go home more", "I should've pray more", etc... In the middle of my grief, which I was not yet accepting everything that was happened, God gave me a huge blessing. 2

Life recently, First 3 months of 2023.

Life is really hard for me, currently. But not that I'm not grateful. God has given me the greatest gift: That I'm expecting! I'm now almost 6 months pregnant with my 2nd child and it's been amazing. My son, Zefa is also growing happily, I've been blessed with good health, also my husband, my mommy, and a lot of my families been blessed. One of my cousin is getting married, I've been able to eat yummy and cook healthy food, it's all blessing for me. I've also been bless on my career, knowing that I almost become 100% PNS, hopefully it will be official this month!  But yes, life is not always perfect.  On the first months of this year I've lost 2 of my dear family members; my grandma and my cousin. It's really hard for me because I do really close to them by heart. They're like my most fav people to talk to after my parents. I miss them deeply. I hope they're peace in heaven now. I wish for them to be happy up there knowing me and other fa

Zefa's officialy a preschooler!

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 Hi ppl! I'm beyond excited to tell ya guys that my son is finally get in to a formal school.  My consideration before putting him at school is because I work full time now. I've been enjoying teaching him at home, doing homeschooling and simple learning activities, But I can't really doing it often now.  Lately, when I back home in the afternoon, I already feel tired. Therefore I decided it's time for him to enter formal school. I'm letting him finally go out from the nest, guys.  He's now 4 by the way. Plus little update about my hunnybunn: *which I really proud of, It's not bragging ya guys I just want to write as a keep sake memory. At 4 Years old (just turned 4 last month) He's able to: count up till 100 doing simple addition and subtraction like to learn about recycling, save the earth, save water,  very curious about a lot of things.  and I'm beyond proud of him! here's some picture of his first week at school. 

Dunia Umbi

 Hi there! sudah lama nggak nulis di blog ya. Selalu sih, dari dulu.. kalau sudah ada kesibukan pasti nggak sempet buka blog. Hidup terus berjalan kak. Tapi kini, aku sedang ingin menulis tentang a new phase, lebih tepatnya a new beginning and a fresh start di hidup aku yang kini sedang aku jalani. Yup, sesuai judul dari tulisan kali ini, aku jadi umbi gaes! hehe. Itu bahasa sekarang - sekarang ini untuk menyebut seorang ASN / CPNS. Oke, langsung saja aku ceritain journey ku ya! Perjalanan ini dimulai di bulan Juli 2021. Ketika saat itu aku masih menjadi guru private seorang anak expat di Surabaya. I enjoy teaching very much. Everyday I feel challenged to teach, to find a way about how to explain/ clarify some information for these kids, so they can grasp the concept.  Oke, malah kemana - mana ya ceritanya, hehe. Pokoknya, kerjaan aku waktu itu tuh lagi ngajar les privat , Ibuku nawarin aku buat coba CPNS tahun itu. Sebenarnya di awal aku sudah males. Karena aku mikirnya kesempatan mas

My Engagement Story: The Preparation

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Hai, apakabar? Postingan kali ini akan lebih membahas mengenai hal yang udah cukup lama aku tidak bahas, apa ituu? hehe tentang kehidupan percintaan dan rumah tangga 😆. Postingan kali ini aku harap akan mencadi juga sebuah cerita yang nantinya bisa di baca oleh anakku, Zefa, dan adiknya. Bermula dari kira - kira akhir tahun 2021, Mas Dimas, yang saat itu menjadi pacarku selama 3 tahunan lebih, mengutarakan maksudnya untuk mengajak aku untuk ngobrol bersama keluarganya. Aku ingat waktu itu kami pergi ke Ocean Garden, salah satu restoran di Malang. Sore itu cukup haru, karena untuk kali pertama aku berani untuk open up tentang cerita mengenai aku yang menjadi ibu tunggal ke keluarga Mas Dimas, the backstory.  Pada saat itu aku dan Mas Dimas ditanyai beberapa pertanyaan, seperti Äpakah kamu sungguh sudah siap untuk lanjut ke jenjang berikutnya? Apakah kamu sudah yakin, ini adalah seseorang yang kamu mau nikahi? Setelah pertemuan itu, kami berlanjut di pertemuan keluarga di rumahku di Sur

My life recap during these years.

Hi all! I just want to write some stuff that is going on in my life lately. Since I rarely write on this blog, I just want to try to write my up and downs since I had my baby boy which is a huge milestone worth writing and celebrating! I'll tell you briefly how my life changed and how I learned a lot through these years on this one single post. :D  My Motherhood Journey I know, It's been almost 4 years since I'm overcoming motherhood. And all I can say to you is, It's so beautiful. It's super beautiful.  My bundle of joy, Mr. Z, was born in 2018. Back then, I do not know at all, how to do motherhood. How to become a mother, and let's put this underlined, I'm by myself. All alone, by myself.  I am trying the best I can to simply, hold all the feelings of angst, be disappointed(because of something I wish to tell in this blog too, I hope I have the courage to write it), I throw away those other unnecessary feelings to just hold on to love. To be grateful for m